jessica raphaela's posts with tag: th0ught f0r the day
grabe, feeling ko mamamatay na talaga ako kapag ganito parin buhay ko bukas.  hahaha. grabe. sobrang useless ko talaga ngayon. :)) kasi next week pa kami magbabakasyon ng pamilya ko. i hope i can last until then. buti na lang may OUTING ang avo (at ilang bec ^^,) sa friday. makakaalis na rin ako ng bahay. gosh, i feel so suffocated. hahaha. tama ba namang mamatay sa boredom sa huling summer vacation ko? SAVE ME!kagabi nga, nag-senti na kami ni victoria sa text e. sa sobrang bangag namin. mga 12:30 na nun nung nagsimula akong magdrama at sinuportahan naman ni bec, kaya nagdrama na kami dun. :)) kasi may napanood ako sa tv, na babaeng magbebestfriends na 40 yrs old. tas naisip ko, sana kahit na may pamilya na kami, kahit na losyang na kami, hindi kami magkasawaan nila victoria, katleya, at angel. at pati na rin nila joyce, yza, audrey, lindsay, carla, at claudette. huhuhu. ayan na naman, nagsesenti na naman ako. :)) tapos namimiss ko pa si katleya. hindi na nga siya makakasama sa outing. mahina pa signal sa batangas. wah. huhuhu. haha. pero sana mag-enjoy siya sa fiesta. sa sobrang boredom ko, pati friendster ko na sobrang tagal ng static ay pinatulan ko na uli. at nagpaka-FC pa ako at nag-add pa ng ibang batchmates sa quesci na hindi ko naman kilala in person, sa name and face lang, buti na lang mababait sila. :)) sobrang desperado ako na may gawin sa buhay bukod sa manood ng tv, kumain, at matulog (aka BUHAY OINK OINK). grabe talaga, antaba taba ko na. excited na nga akong magpasukan para ndi na ko mattempt kumain at maburn ko na ang fats ko. :)) pati pa mga classmates kong avo ay kinukulit ko na sa multiply, at friendster nila. :)) comment dito. comment dyan. si airelle, yza, angel, victoria, migs, camille, calee, lemelen, shara ay ilan lamag sa mga iyon. pati si kate at calee, kinukulit ko sa ym. nakikisali na ko sa away nila na david cook VS david archuleta. :)) tapos forever kong kachat ang bestfriend kong si hoshea (buti di pa siya nagsasawa sakin :)) ). ayan, kaya sa mga nakukulit ko, sorry naman. :)) ayun pa pala, nung isang araw, parang naiinggit ako kela maci, claudia at iya dahil ateneo sila. naisip ko tuloy, tama kaya ang desisyon kong mag- upm. ang layo layo kasi. tapos marami pa daw snatchers at hold-upers. tapos parang madugo pa ang nursing. atleast sa ateneo, mas safe ung environment, tas 20 minutes away lang. pero naisip ko rin, na sobrang blessed ako na matanggap sa upm. kaya aun, pinush away ko na ung thoughts of regrets before they were able to engulf me.i am ultimately bored. please save me. may alam ba kayong... movie? tv series? BOOK? kahit anong interesting.
yung mga kasama sa gm ko, kung unli kayo, magreply na rin kayo. hahaha! kailangan ko kayo. :))
i need your salvation. promise. i'm dead serious. HELP ME!!!


i've learned a lot of things these past years. and the greatest lesson i've probably learned is to stay positive. i'm through with the days when i feel and ACT like the sad person i sometimes am. [mind you, i have bipolar tendencies].
dahil na rin yun sa tulong ng mga kaibigan ko. parating masaya. parating nakatawa. natutunan ko kasi na hindi lahat ng bagay tungkol sakin. kaya imbis na magmukmok ako sa isang sulok, i smile and laugh. it is very effective.
with that happy disposition, kahit na malungkot ako, even if i start with fake laughs and fake smiles, i end up with genuine ones. malaki talaga kayong tulong sakin. =)
pro alam niyo yon, there are just some days... that no matter how hard you try, you don't end up with genuine happiness... and this is one of them.
hindi ko nga ma-explain kung bakit. may maganda na naman akong school na mapapasukan. masaya naman kami ng pamilya ko... okay na okay naman kami ni... nanjan parin naman Siya... pro, somehow i know, that not everything's alright. i just dont feel at ease... siguro dahil marami ako na-realize ngayong araw. siguro dahil kay X, O, at sa marami pang bagay.
kaya sana kahit ngayon araw lang... can i be the sad person that i currently am? just for today. just now.
p.s. i'll be the same ms. bright sunshine tomorrow. =]
A Piece of My Heart One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There has not a mark or a flaw in it.
Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, “Why, your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine.” The crowd and the young man looked as the old man’s heart. It was beating strongly, but it was full of scars.
It has places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in,
but they don’t fit quite right and there were several rugged edges. In fact, in some places, there were deep gauges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared. “How can he say his heart is more beautiful,” they
thought. The
young man looked at the old man’s heart and saw its state and laughed.
“You must be joking,” he said, “Compare your heart with mine. Mine is perfect while yours is a mess of scars and tears.” “Yes,” said the old man, “Yours is perfectly looking but I would never trade with you. You
see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I
tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give a
piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but
because the pieces aren’t exact, I have some rough edges, which I
cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared.” “Sometimes, I have given pieces of my heart away, and
the other person hasn’t returned a piece of his heart to me. There are empty gauges - giving love, is taking the chance. Although
these gauges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I
have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill
the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?” The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The
old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece
from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young
man’s heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The
young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore, but more beautiful
than ever, since love from the old man’s heart flowed into his. Just a while ago I ripped a piece from my heart. Now I’m offering it to you.
Interview with God I dreamed I had an interview with God. “Come in,” God said. “So, you would like to interview Me?” “If you have time,” I said. God smiled and said: “My time is
eternity and is enough to do everything; what questions do you have in mind to ask me?” “What surprises you most about mankind?” God answered: “That
they get bored of being children, are in rush to grow up, and then long
to be children again. That they lose their health to make money and
then lose their money to restore their health. That by thinking
anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they
live neither for the present nor for the future. That they live as
if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived…” God’s
hands took mine and we were silent for a while and then I asked, “As a
parent, what are some lessons you want your children to learn?” God replied with a smile, “To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved. To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. All will be judged individually on their own merits, not as a group on a comparison basis! To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most but is the
one who needs the least.
To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in
persons we love, and it takes many years to heal them. To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness. To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know to express or show their feelings. To learn that money can buy everything but happiness. To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally different. To know that a friend is someone who knows everything about them, and likes them anyway. To learn that it is not always enough to be forgiven but they have to forgive themselves.” Then I asked God, “How do we get the best of life?” God answered, “Face your past without regret, handle your present with confidence and prepare for the future without fear.” He also added, “Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts
and never doubt your beliefs…Trust Me, life is wonderful if you know how to live.” I
sat there for a while enjoying the moment. I thanked Him for His time
and for all that He has done for me and my family, and He replied, “Anytime. I’m here 24 hours a day. All you have to do is ask for Me, and I’ll answer.”
the pers0n u are destined t0 bec0me is the pers0n u decide t0 be.ü
nagandahan tlga ko jan. kxe, i believe in destiny. na parang may plans na si God for us. but i still believe that we can actually change these plans by our decisi0ns. kaxe ung iba parang, "bahala na." but i believe that our decisi0ns are imp0rtant. kxe its n0t 0ur family or G0d. wh0 decides wh0 we bec0me. we make that decisis0n every single day as we make 0ur decisi0ns about the smallest things in life.
sabi nga sa text.... "destiny is an excuse f0r LETTING things happen instead of MAKING them happen."
kay0 lets try t0 think things sl0wly. make the best decisi0ns. we only get t0 live 0nce. lets try t0 bec0me the best pers0n we may p0ssibly be.ü
hehe.ü la lng. sharing. an0 ba sa tingin ny0?ü
this is a little story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody. there was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry over that because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought that Anybody could do it but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. it ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nodody did what Anybody could have done. ~> galing sa poster ng papemelroti.     
 | buhay | Apr 12, '07 9:21 AM for everyone |
im currently writing this post. not knowing exacty how to start it nor end it. maybe i should contemplate about life. its magnificence. its bitterness.
cj once qouted this "every single second spent on earth is every single second spent on dying."
such a pessimistic view of life, right? but when i read it, i realized how true it was. its such a negative point of view. its such an honest point of view. but then i realized, its not so negative after all. if we knew that every single second spent on earth is every single second spent on dying. then maybe, just maybe. we'll live our life to the fullest. we won't postpone anything fearing that we won't have a tomorrow to do it.
i remember another quote from spongebob "why do it today when you can do it tommorow?" "cause today is yesterday's tomorrow."
everyday we are often assigned to do numerous tasks. and more often than not, we end up postponing things. saying "bukas na." or "bahala na.". how sure are we that we have a tomorrow? a later? i know its hard. its hard for me myself. but i still have faith in humanity. i know it will actually sink in on us. we'll be able to adjust.
i'm a pathetic teenager whose not sure of what to believe in in life. some say live for today. some say. live for tomorrow. what should i believe?
sometimes when i have nothing to do. i just think about these things. grabe, nakakabaliw. now i realize that we can never really understand life fully. there are many unanswerable questions. questions that most curious people [[eg. scientists]] desperately try to answer. if you ask me, some things are better left that way. some things are meant to be unanswered. because these are the things that make us want to live on. these are the things that inspire us to think. things that He designed so brilliantly that nobody could actually explain it.
the times when i think about these. are the times that i am reassured that there is a God. my faith is sometimes shaken. when i think about a simple fact such as life. i realize how unsimple it actually is. and that's when i tell myself. "there really is a God. who else could have thought about that?"
life. one word. four letters. yet it contains all letters in the alphabet. it contains all lines in a poem. it contains all songs we sing. it contains all people we meet. it contains the God we believe in. life. it simply contains everything.
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