jessica raphaela's posts with tag: family.family.ü
i was never really sure about being a nurse.my parents didn't coerce me to take the course. but they greatly influenced my decision. yesterday... was our NSTP. and honestly, I  IT.actually nag-over time pa nga ako eh.voluntarily. martyr ko diba? haha. pero kasi i really enjoy being there. okay. so gwapo talaga yung isang intern sa ENT - where i was assigned. at may kilig moment pa ko with him. hahaha. pero kahit pa wala siya,i'm sure i'll still look forward to my wednesdays from now on.kawawa yung mga patients dun. i want to do something for them. actually, naguiguilty ako dahil mag-aabroad talaga ko. i realized that i want to help these kind of patients. i want to help the people of the Republic of the Philippines. (naks. hahaha.)
i realized that maybe, just maybe -
i will learn to love being a nurse.
note to self: bago ka magiging nurse, mag-aral ka munang mabuti at ipasa mo board exam a!
|  | *INCOMPLETE PICTURES* :))
*ate camille, upload ko po lahat pag maayos na connection, sorry po.*
sawadee kha. :)
wieeee.
nakalabas din ng bahay.
at nakapagbakasyon.
in the truest sense of it.
(kahit na nakakapagod magshopping)
ayun, masaya naman ung bakasyon namin. we went to bangkok with mommy's cousin, ate camille. :)
it was really fun.
okay naman yung flight papunta, 3hrs lang. kaya halos 15mins lang ata ako nakatulog. at pinanuod ko na rin yung featured film na "dan in real life", okay naman. haha.
nakakatuwa yung ibang tao dun, lalo na yung taxi driver papunta sa hotel, kasi kahit di sya masyadong magaling mag-english, you can really feel his energy. tawa siya ng tawa habang nagkwekwentuhan sila ni daddy. at parating nakasmile. :)
maganda rin naman ung hotel. baiyoke sky. tallest hotel nga daw in thailand ee. at cute din naman yung room namin. haha.
tapos, shopping na kami sa mga stalls sa baba. kasi gabi na rin kami nakarating.
second day yung sa dreamworld. although pumunta na kami dun last time, pumunta uli kami para makita ni tita. :)
masaya naman, kasi maraming cute na picture spots dun ee. haha, atska maganda ung mga landscapes. tas may mga thrilling rides din. :)
masaya yung flying carpet at yung isang baliktad na roller coaster ride na nakalimutan ko na ang pangalan. haha, ang cute. :)
at grabe, 2 lang kami ng tita ko dun sa space mountain. maaga pa kasi. ang dilim pa naman sa loob, katakot talaga.
at first time ko nag-bump car. masaya pala siya. kahit na nakakahiya kasi stinop lahat ng cars nung narealize ni manong na ndi ako nakaseat belt at kinakausap nya ko pero ndi ko siya maintindihan. grabe, lahat ng tao nakatingin sakin. hahaha. :)
ayun, iba pang rides. tas picture picture.
ay may snowland pa pala. na ice lang naman talaga. hahaha. naka-shorts pa naman ako. tas ang iksi nung jacket na binigay sakin. pero nakaya ko naman. haha, ndi naman ako naging violet. :)
haha. tas ayun, ay!
nagpakain pala ako ng elephant!ang saya nun. kahit na kinakabahan ako. ang tanda na nga ni elphy e.. tas parang gutom sya kasi rinireach niya ung binebentang bananas. kaya, pinakain namin siya. :)
medyo nakakatakot sa una, tas kitang kita ko pa yung texture nung trunk nya, medyo creepy. haha.
gusto ko pa nga sumakay, kasi pde, kaso ndi na ako pinayagan ni daddy.
next time, kung pupunta man uli kami sa thai, di na ko makakapayag na di makasakay nan elephant. hahaha. :)
ayun, third day..super shopping. haha, sulit naman. andaming choices at mura pa at cute pa. sa may chatuchak weekend shopping market at MBK na mall kami pumunta.
tapos, ayun, tapos na. hahaha.
ay nag-shopping pa pala kami dun uli sa stalls na malapit sa hotel namin. kasi sa may pratunam district yun. at yun talaga ang shopping district nan bangkok, kaya kahit bumaba lan nan hotel, andami nang stalls. :)
last day, more shopping. :))
naisip ko nga, nakakahiya naman kay tita dahil ndi nya nakita ung mga temples and other beautiful parts of thailand...kasi last time na pumunta kami, nag-tour na kami, kaya ndi na kami nagtour. pro naisip ko, kawawa naman tita ko. haha.
ayun, antagal nga pala namin naghintay sa airport... kasi naman 1pm lan late check out sa hotel e 11pm pa flight namin. kaya nagshopping uli kami hanggang 3pm. tambay sa hotel hanggang 4pm. tas punta na ng airport. aun, ang boring tuloy. haha.
kaya lumibot-libot na rin kami sa airport dun. ang ganda nga nung shape nya e. at ang laki. un nga ata ung largest airport sa asia. newly rennovated kasi siya. :)
ayun. ano pa ba? haha.
basta ayun, super nag-enjoy naman ako (magshopping). hahaha.
pero ayun, masaya talaga.
sana mabisita nyo rin ang thailand.
phuket kung beach lover kayo.
at bangkok kung shopaholic kayo.
hahaha. ayan. :)
kop khun kha for reading. :)
sawadee kha. :) |
yey. sinipag ulit ako. there's really something sooo wrong with me. i mean, i'm jessica. the girl who enjoys blogging. and posting anything on her multiply site. and yet.. for some reason, i suddenly dreaded posting. hahahaha. and all my best friends noticed my sudden lack of new posts. hahaha. :)
so... here i am, magdadaldal ulit about my first-half of summer. yay.
PIDC.well, this probably launched my summer. hahaha. we volunteered for this inter-collegiate debate competition. it was exhausting. but it was fun. i got to tour UP's eng'g bldg and the palma hall. haha. it was really fun watching the debates...and meeting new people! (one of which offered to eat my left-over chicken) haha. ;) it was honestly enjoyable though. everyone was amazing.  HANA KIMI.haha. i was starting to imitate a pig about to be slaughtered (as i do every summer). when suddenly i watched this show on ABS. at first, i didn't like it that much. but it turned out to be fun. haha. ang gwapo pa ng bida. go BRIAN. go WU CHUN. yay! it's a very funny series at kilig din. wieeee. what really made the show fun is the fact that i got to watch them with my bestfriends. mas masaya nga sana kung buong SMB. kaso baka hindi nila magustuhan ang hana kimi. hahaha. so ayun, it was really fun. yung adventures na pinagdaanan namin. yung pagkakaron ng buhay sa bahay namin. yung pagsama sa iba diyan sa UPD para sa medical. hahaha. yung pag-commute commute. yung pagkain. yung maling pagclick sa remote control nan XBOX nila bec. yung pag-surprise sa iba diyan. hahahaha. basta lahat, i really enjoyed those three days. hope we could do it again some time. LAGUNA.i never really expected that i would enjoy staying there as much as i did. as in, ayaw ko pa talagang umuwi nun. i really miss a lot of things there. i miss my family there. i miss being forcely fed by my lola. i miss taking care of my lolo. i miss my makulit na tita. i miss my nice tito. i miss my madaldal and lovable cousin Ana. i miss them all. i miss the uga-uga which i love sitting on. haha. i miss the terrace where we star gaze. i miss seeing a lot of stars and constellations. i miss the fresh air. i miss watching loveholic on their tv and dvd. i miss opening the tv without cable. i miss having no internet. haha. get it? just everything. one unforgettable thing there is how i met my second cousins. they were from cavite at bakasyon lang din sila sa laguna. it was the first time we met each other. haha. and the funny thing is crush ako nung pinsan ko na ka-age ko named mcneil. hahaha. tawa talaga ko ng tawa nung kwinento yun sakin ng lola ko the day after i met my cousins. my ninang overheard my cousins talking and she told my lola. detailed pa yung pagkwento nya a. kwinento pa ung pagka-describe sakin and all. that part, nahiya na ako. haha. nakakailang pala. hahaha. cute din naman yung pinsan ko. haha. sabi nga ng lola ko, buti nagkakilala na kami kasi baka daw magkaligawan pa and we'll be like star-crossed lovers from teleseryes. hahahaha. really enjoyed my stay there. hope i can go back soon. LOVEHOLIC.my new found addiction. grabe. i could not tell you enough how much i loved the story. grabe grabe grabe talaga! i wish all people in the world could love and be loved that way. i could not find the perfect word to describe the love the two people here have for eah other. i've watched it twice already. and i'm not ready to stop. hahaha.  SUMMER LOVIN'.hahahaha. i'm just really happy right now. haha. so many things are happening. super happy ako. haha. and it's fun to enjoy things just as they are. and i'm really contented right now. overwhelmed pa nga eh.  well, sorry for the long post. haha. nahahawa na talaga ko kay victoria. hahaha.
the first half of my summer was fun. hope i enjoy the latter-half even more. and you too. ;]
| | after four years.
of cramming.
of staying up late.
of not sleeping at all.
we finally got our diplomas :)
*haha. matagal na nasa drafts ko to. i forgot to publish. :))*
*published : June 25, 08 :) * |
wow. andaming nanyari these past days. sobrang dami kong gustong isulat. if you are currently reading this entry, that means that i was able to overcome my laziness. i just miss writing (well, technically, typing xp).
monday. a very sad day for me. ang hirap. nakakalungkot. nakakainis. nakakaguilty. lahat yan pinagsama sa isang gabi. so, as the emotional and weak person that i am, iyakan na naman.
prom. no question na sobrang mas na-enjoy ko prom last yr. mas maganda venue, mas maayos program, mas maganda music. pro ayos lang din naman, may happy and sad parts naman.
- ikaw. hai naku, regret ka jan. alam mo bang sobrang lungkot ko dhl di mo ko sinayaw? haha. nagdrama? pro kahit na riniregret mo rin un, nakakalungkot lang din tlga. may paexplain explain ka pa. haha. last chance na e. aysus, haha. pati si angel, nalungkot. haha. well anyway, ayos na naman. :)
- you. sige lan, paalala mo pa mga nanyari. haha. pero ayos lang din naman kasi atlst, snabi mo. ayoko rin naman kasing maulit un. salamat sa pagwarn at pagpayo. sorry dahil pinalo kita ng pinalo. haha. salamat. :)
- kaw. ayun, salamat sa lahat. sa sayaw and everything else. :)
- u. hai naku, nalulungkot ako dahil dun. hai, sana lang tlga. pro aus lan, di mo naman un klangan gawin. haha. atlst. :)
overnight.
- syempre feel na feel ko tlga at natulog akong nakadress pa. haha. ang comfortable kaya. kaya ayun, sarap din naman ng tulog ko kahit maiksi lang din.
- ang sarap kasi magkwentuhan. may spin the bottle pa tayong nalalaman. :))
- at masaya ring maging scavenger. tipong, pinaghatian natin ung isang pirasong chicken na malamig na. at kumain ng chips na hindi naman tlga masarap. at maghati sa bawas ng 2 bottles ng tubig. kamusta naman un diba? haha. but still, i enjoyed it A LOT. :)
- kahit na tulog tau ng tulog (at basa ko ng basa ;]), at siyempre picture pa ng picture. :)) fun tlga.
- fun na makapipi ung isa dyan ng heart-shaped can na naging flat na.
- at maglakad papunta sa NAPAKAlapit lang na mcdo (ayun o, sa unang stoplight, kita ko na nga e. :)) )
- at makarinig ng R-18 word from ur dad. :)) kahit na aksidente lang un, that got us going. :))
edward. ok, i confess. weird ako. mainlove ba sa isnag vampire na ndi naman totoo (siyempre. xp) hai naku, bakit ba kasi nakakainlove tlga siya? aysus. ang ganda tlga ng TWILIGHT. as in i super recommend na basahin niyo siya. ok, so humagulgol ako sa first part ng NEW MOON (monday nun xp) at naiyak sa ending ng ECLIPSE. pero still, its so worth it. as in, adk na tlga ko. search dito search jan. i cant wait to read the last book this august and watch the movie this december. i really cant help but fall for edward. and i really am finding a HARD time accepting that edward cullen is a FICTIONAL character. T.T haha. so, hindi obvious na baliw na ko? wah. bago ko mag babble til dooms day dito, i have to move on to the nxt topic, haha. xp
O. grabe, ndi kita maintindihan. may gnwa ba kong mali sau? sorry kng mali interpretation ko sa actions mo, pro ganun kasi tlga ung labas e. sana kng galit ka man, or may ngwa man akong mali, kausapin mo ko. sna mabasa mo to, tapos kausapin mo na ko. ang hirap kasi e. sana tlga makapag-usap tau.
grad. grabe. ilang araw na lang. sobrang bumabaliktad tlga sikmura ko at the thought of it. excited for college, pro not ready to leave highschool. ilang balde kaya ang maiiyak ko sa grad? hai. pro sobrang laki tlga ng faith ko, na matutupad natin lahat ng gusto naten. na kng ano man ung gsto naten maging, mangyayari yun. i believe that. i believe in us. i believe in Him. :)
so ayun, nagdaldal lang ako dito. haha. try ko na upload pics and videos. :)
salamat sa lahat ng nakasama ko. :) SMB, avo, JS, mom, dad, mama, ate Jaya, EDWARD. ayie. haha. :)
recently... i've watched myself fall in and out of love for the same guy for years. recently... i've learned that my rank has not improved, and i hope my mom doesn't get upset. recently... i've been smiling more often because of......................... =) recently... i''ve been through a lot of school stuff. recently... i've just learned that the prom sched has been moved. recently... more and more books have been added to my TO READ STUFF this summer. recently... i've been planning for my summer, and im soooooo excited. - summer job?
- driving lessons:)
- LSC come back. haha
- teach little kids. =)
- read read read.
- rest
- UP-M!!! enrollment and commute lessons :))
- watch House, Prison Break, Heroes, and Grey's Anatomy
- watch missed movies
- contemplate
- go out with friends :)
- magshopping para sa everyday casual wear for college. hahaha. :))
recently... i've been contemplating about our last remaining days as classmates. [i'll miss you AVO. T.T] recently... i've realized how much my family means to me. recently... i've realized how much I love debating (I miss and love you too DEBSOC) and how much it broke my heart to not be able to join our LAST contest and later finding out that i could have joined. [still depressed] recently... downloaded new songs to my itunes and phone. recently... trying to study really hard. recently... confused. how can you do this AGAIN? =) STILL... in love with friends, family, and GOD. :)
i can say that i am happy with my life. i just realized today how lucky i am... ^^i have the best family. i couldnt even ask for more. everything i need, i get from them. all the love i can possibly feel, i feel for them. God has truly blessed me. ^^i have the best friends. basta masaya ako ngayon. i realized na nahanap ko na ang mga bestfriends ko. tapos nandyan ang SMB. im happy cause i have bestfriends who listen, understand, and make me happy. i know i can trust them. and im thankful that i have them. sana nga, dito na lang sila nakatira sa bahay. haha. dreams. =) ^^i have God in my heart. i know that God loves me, He loves all of us. and sometimes i lose faith. my friends help me regain that. i wanna believe in God even more. I wanna trust Him with everything. I wanna submit to His will. pero, that's easier said than done. masaya talaga ko ngayon. kasi i know na i have positive people around me. good influences. people who make me laugh, instead of making me sad. people who are simply there. people who truly care. i hope i never overlook these things. in the busy ways of life, i hope i wont forget to remember these... i love and i am loved. =)
| | a nice place.ü |
i'm a certified drama queen. i cry over petty things. over things that most people just laugh about. over things that some people may just ignore. but i cant help it. maybe drama is a part of me. or maybe i'm a part of it.
i almost cried myself to sleep last night. i was so sure that i'm gonna ignore my parents or atleast make them feel that i feel bad. but thankfully, God was there. He was there through my friend. =)
first of all, he listened to me. he listened to this girl who has no one to talk to. to this girl who is crying over her lack of understanding for her parents. he said some things that i did not think about, "cgurado naman ak0ng gust0 ka tlga samahan ng m0m m0 kng wala lng xang importanteng gagawin." he said somethings that made me laugh. most importantly, he told me the truth. without making me feel bad about myself. with0ut making me feel that i am such a petty pers0n. he was truly g0d's blessing during that time.
s0metimes i sc0rn myself f0r n0t understanding every0ne. and that's why i pray t0 g0d t0 give me m0re understanding. and i kn0w He hears me.
last night, i learned that s0me pe0ple actually understand y0u. s0me pe0ple actually care en0ugh t0 stay awake with y0u till the wee h0urs 0f the m0rning and just hear y0u 0ut n0 matter h0w stupid y0u s0und. i learned that there is a God. and that he l0ves me en0ugh t0 bless me with a friend like him.
t0 my friend, there's one in a billi0n chance than y0u will be able t0 read this p0st. but just in case, we hit that 0ne chance, i sincerely wanna thank y0u. y0u d0nt kn0w h0w happy y0u have made me this m0rning. im truly blessed that we're friends. =)
| | unti pa lan ung na-uupl0ad k0 e. la pa ung sa rest0.ü |
| Start: | Jun 1, '07 | | End: | Jun 15, '07 | | Location: | d0nt kn0w |
pinsan k0 t0h.ü
| Start: | Jun 1, '07 | | End: | Jun 15, '07 | | Location: | LA |
bday ng tit0 k0 sa states.ü
i had fun this m0ther's day. besides the fact that my daughter, heverly, greeted me (haha), i had fun with my family.
church. it was sunday s0 as usual we attended the mass.ü even bef0re the masz started, i felt lucky. i alm0st bumped int0 my crush. as he went d0wn the stairs, and as i walked t0wards the d00r. we alm0st bumped int0 each 0ther but g00d thing that the bumping f0rces ar0und weren't really that active. g0sh, i d0nt kn0w h0w a b0y and a girl wearing 4-inch heels c0lliding (0r w0rse, on t0p of 0ne an0ther) w0uld l00k like t0 the c0nservative pe0ple ar0und.ü h0wever, he didnt play the beatb0x f0r this masz t0day.
banana leaf. we ate here. although we had t0 wait but it was actually w0rth it.ü
gifts and h0me-made cards. i b0ught an expensive b00k f0r my m0ther. my father and i shared the expenses alth0ugh his share was larger than mine. haha.ü i gave my grandma m0ney cause that's what she asked f0r.ü i gave mama, m0mmy and ate jeng(my tita), a h0me-made card which i w0rked hard f0r. haha.ü i al0s gave ate jeng a d0zen of hungry pac crinkles (tama ba spelling?).ü
churr0s. we ate s0me. my treat.ü
camera. i t00k pictures all the while.ü
i l0ve m0thers' day. i l0ve my m0m. but the th0ught 0f having m0ther's day as an excuse t0 express h0w much y0u l0ve y0ur m0m saddens me a bit. its sad that we d0nt d0 this everyday. its sad that we need an event like this t0 sh0w 0ur m0ms h0w much we appreciate them. n0netheless, i als0 appreciate this event because it gives pe0ple the 0pp0rtunity t0 rec0gnize their m0ms.ü
i l0ve y0u m0m. very much.ü
| Start: | May 13, '07 | | Location: | s0mewhere happy.ü |
m0ther's day.ü i so0o0 l0ve y0u m0thers 0f the w0rld.ü
i just realized yesterday h0w al0ne i am. my life's n0 drama. i have a l0ving family. im an 0nly child but i have my c0usins. my parents are always at w0rk but i can always visit my l0la s0me bl0cks away. yet yesterday, it sinked in 0n me : i'm always al0ne. and maybe that's h0w my life is.
i spent the past few days with my c0usin sleeping over our h0use. it was fun but i can't deny the fact that i l0st my temper s0metimes. i t0ld myself "hai, sana umuwi na t0." yesterday, my aunt fetched my c0usin and als0 t0ld me ab0ut their pr0blem.
as my c0usin went away, a stabbing pain jabbed thr0ugh my heart. i knew that as i l0cked 0ur d00r, i'm back t0 my 0ld self. my al0ne self. i didn't have any0ne t0 fight with 0ver the rem0te c0ntr0l. over the c0mputer. 0ver anything stupid. it made me sad.
the day went 0n. i missed him even m0re. as i g0t l0nelier. i remembered my parents. the past week, they always g0 h0me late because 0f their w0rk. i barely g0t t0 spend any time with them. thay went h0me tired, needing rest. i th0ught ab0ut h0w i missed them. h0w i missed talking t0 them. h0w i missed fighting with them. that feeling made me cry. it br0ke my heart in a way that i can really feel my heart breaking. i prayed t0 g0d, asking him f0r strength, the strength that w0uld make me understand the necessity 0f what they were d0ing.
God is indeed great. last night, my m0m came h0me early, 7:30. it really made me happy but i didn't want t0 be that 0bvi0us. i didn't fight with her last night. i als0 did s0me ch0res s0 she can rest. we talked ab0ut s0me tv sh0ws, sh0wbiz and blah blah. she als0 asked me ab0ut my crushes and insisted "id0l" t0 be my crush. it may be such a petty reas0n t0 be happy. but it sincerely made me happy.
maybe i am always al0ne. i'm pr0bably used t0 it. but wh0 cares? if at the end 0f the day, i get t0 spend quality time with the pers0ns i l0ve m0st.ü
once again, nil desperadum.ü
may family pr0blem kami. n0t between my parents and me. a pr0blem my tit0 and his family's facing...xempre, its like our pr0blem as well. i really h0pe maay0s na un. di k0 naman masha2re kxe maxad0ng pers0nal and sensitive ung t0pic. pr0 sana lng tlga, maay0s un.
kgabi nga, when i prayed, i t0ld myself that even just f0r that night, i w0nt wish anything f0r myself...at maj0r wish k0 tlga ay ung sana G0d will give them the strength t0 face this huge trial and the trust in each 0ther t0 make them g0 0n.
misz k0 na nga ung pinsan k0 eh. naaawa ak0 sa kanila. it hurts t0 kn0w s0mething's wr0ng and n0t be able t0 d0 anything ab0ut it.
as 0f n0w, all i can 0ffer them is my endless prayers and love.ü
i l0ve y0u.ü
ewan. i had t0 stay at my l0la's h0use kxe lininis ng helper ung h0se namin aun. masaya naman.ü
higlights:
2.4 kbps lang ung rate ng internet sa pc ng tita k0. w000h. bilis n0h! niyak nga ak0 sa kakatawa eh. di k0 alam na may ganun. pr0 nung dumating tit0 k0 sabi nya mag-rec0nnect kami. tp0s nung nag-rec0nnect, 46.6 na. thank G0d. ü
jann0. hala, nakita k0 ung ex-crush k0ng bad b0y. ala lng. past is pats. :P
takaw. hala, ang takaw k0 ngaun. magpapakagut0m na lng ak0 bukas. ;)
jayajay. while im typing this p0st. et0 katabi k0 pinsan k0. tul0g na sa bed k0. sleep0ver ulet.ü
nikz. sana maay0s naten un.
bodie. i realized na cute tlga xa. ahai.
nil desperadum. there is n0 res0n t0 despair. i have al0t 0f reas0ns t0 make me sad t0day. pr0 naisip k0, im t00y0ung t0 w0rry ab0ut th0se things much. kea, fell0w teens, nil desperadum, owkei?!
survival. ü
ahai. lab k0 t0h. imagine xa nagsama saken nge0ng araw na t0h. c dad kxe nasa w0rk. m0m nsa w0rk din. s0, i sh0uld have been al0ne. pr0 last nyt, my alm0st 7-yr 0ld c0usin wh0 is my m0m's fav0rite, wanted t0 spend the night here. he likes t0 stay in 0ur h0use cause we have l0ts 0f f00d. eh, matakaw t0h. ahehe.ü
aun, s0 last nyt, tabi kmi sa bed k0. msaya naman.ü
kanina, agawan kami sa panunu0d ng tv. ahehe. pr0 s0metimes we agree. he tests my patience. okei din un, dba!?ü
ngaun, habang nag-uupdate ak0 ng kng an02 inside my r00m, he's in 0ur living r00m, watching Cart00n Netw0rk. by the way, ung pinapanu0d nya ngaun ay napanu0d nya na kaninang umaga. aagawan k0 xa ng rem0te pag law of ueki na. wahaha.ü
aun, l0ve k0 tlga t0ng c0sin k0, cause he's sweet and he's independent. ofc0urse, i l0ve all my c0usins. they're like my siblings eh. ahehe. cge, la na k0ng masabi.ü
| | sa laguna t0h. we raerly see each other. kya aun, nagpicture ng nagpicture. ahaha. andame nit0. di k0 pa na-uupl0ad ung iba. :P
l0ve y0u c0us.ü |
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